April

-----4/24

Hi journal. its been a while. a lot has happened in the last month. i had a biopsy on my mouth and i bled a lot but i'm ok now. school has been ok but i still feel not as connected to the group. i think its because i don't have any classes with them. i've said this before haven't i. well a really bad thing happened in colorado and the effects have rippled through the nation in every aspect. people were spitting on "gothic" people because they are "gothic" or they wear trenchcoats. ya see, the trenchcoat mafia didn't make that name for themselves. people just gave them that name because they happened to wear trenchcoats every day. why do clothes separate everyone so much? clothes are just a means of covering our bodies. anyways, a few days ago in geometry, 2 days after the school shooting, casey was crying and then my friend sara started talking to her. i'm thinking casey was crying about what was happening and all. anyway, some people in the class heard what they were talking about and then of course they just had to add their shallow insight and meaningless opinions. "gothic people are so stupid", "they deserve to be spit on", "they should go to their own private school", "we really need to get rid of them before they bring guns to school". ya know what stupid people. fuck you. you don't even know any of us yet you asume that we suck blood (well not always), worship the devil, and all this shit. i'm really begining to see how it was like at twin peaks. before it was just one comment every now and then, but now i'm hearing a lot of it and it really makes me mad. of course no one really knows that i hang out with the "gothic" people. i don't really dress like it at all except for on gothic fridays but i don't think i look that gothic now that my spike collar is gone due to a certain person :::coughcoughjustincoughcough:::. but that doesn't really matter. what matters is that i'm gothic on the inside. just kidding.