March

Lousy Smarch weather

-----3/8

Today was a weird day. It started out ok. Wait, no it didn't. I found out I have an F in biology. But Sara said that Ms. Lessard is a hard teacher and the class average is a 65. So that makes me feel a little better. Wait, no it doesn't. When I went home I called Sarah and we went to music trader and the wherehouse and at music trader I saw a super rare janet jackson double cd but it cost too much, but i got the new tlc album and i looooooooooooove it. thats basically all that happened today.

-----3/9

Today was a great day. At school we had an airband assembly and it was so much better than I expected even though just about every group did backstreet boys and *nsync. The first place group from Twin Peaks Middle School performed and they did "King of New York" from the movie "Newsies" and it was sooooooooooo good. And there was this other group that danced to these super cool songs, except dmx, and they were sooooo good. They danced to "Life In Mono" by Mono and "Rapture" by Blondie and it was sooooo good and i couldn't stop talking about them for the rest of the day.

-----3/10

Today was a weird day. In P.E. everyone was being an asshole to me. We were playing softball and this really big asshole head told me to not try so I decided not to(not like i wanted to play anyway). So then this guy hits a fly ball right to me and i just stood there and did nothing and it pissed everyone off grandly. They started being really mean, but there was this one guy that is always nice to me when everyone else is an asshole, even when i don't do anything. even though i don't know his name, but i really appreciate him. and then when i got home i got the new blondie cd entitled "no exit" and it is sooooooooo good and my best friend hazen thinks so too.

-----3/12

Today i saw Carrie 2 with Hazen. It was really good except for some parts.

-----3/15

FUCK!!!!!! Ok, i'll start from the beginning. Me and a lot of my friends were planning to go to the hole/manson concert tomorrow and Bethany bought the tix for us and everything. well guess what. hole dropped out of the tour. that sucks! most of the people were just going to see hole. but you know what sucks even more. THE WHOLE FUCKING CONCERT IS CANCELED! apparently manson hurt himself at the concert before so he just canceled his next 2 shows. one of them happened to be the show that me and my friends were going to. damn.

-----3/16

Today i got my braces tightened and i grieved over the concert.

-----3/19

I'm so glad the weekend is here. I had a good day at school except for in p.e. Valerie was looking depressed and i actually swam and this asshole guy named tj bothered me as usual. I saw forces of nature today with some of my friends. and bethany left a very nice note in my guestbook.  bethany and i were in english together last semester and we were really good friends but now we don't have any classes together but we're still really good friends even though we haven't really had a conversation for a long time but i hope that i'll have a few classes with her next year. my older sister got in really bad trouble today for some bad things(hazen you better not say anything to her at school!). i kind of feel more related to my sister now. we used to be very rivaled and we hated each other but now we're really close and we cover for each other and stuff and it's like we're really good friends. and also me and hazen are writing "Carrie 3" and its gonna be really cool.

-----3/21

today was a cool day, kinda. i went to boring church, as usual, and almost beat up some little, snot-nosed kids, as usual. and then later i went to valerie's page and read a poem she wrote about her mom and then i talked to her and told her about how much i can relate and i complained my brains out about my mom to her even though i knew she didn't want to hear it, but it really helped me. i always thought i was the only one that had mom problems, besides bethany, and i always thought that valeries mom was perfect, but i guess all moms seem perfect to other people, besides my mom cause everyone knows how bitchy my mom is.

-----3/23

today was a fun day. no school. i talked to valerie this morning and it seems like we're becoming better friends. when i first came into the group, i wasn't friends with anyone, but then i became friends with a lot of people, but then i kind of drifted away from those people, but now i think i'm becoming better friends with them. valerie and i were kind of friends in the beginning, and then we kind of drifted apart, but now we're really good friends. and also today i went to hazen's house and i finally figured out who has been putting those evil messages in my guestbook, but i won't tell anyone.

-----3/23

today was a good day. no school. i talked to valerie this morning. i think i'm starting to become better friends with the people in the group. when i first came into the group, i wasn't really friends with anyone, then i was, then we kinda drifted apart, but now i think i'm we're becoming better friends. i used to not be friends with valerie, but now i think we're developing a relationship. and also today i went to hazen's house. i found out who has been putting those evil messages in my guestbook, but i won't tell anyone.

-----3/24

today was an ok day. at p.e. i had a long talk with valerie and we just talked about stuff. but then i had to swim 20 laps and i haven't swam in a long time and it was HELL!!! I had a very hard time breathing and after the first 3 laps i started doing the backstroke and it was better even though i was inhaling water through my nose and bumping into everything. but i survived it. and also today my other friend jae showed everyone her pierced nipple. and very sadly, this was hazen's last day at school. he'll be homeschooling. i'll see him on the weekends though, but i think most of his other friends won't see him ever again, unless he visits which he said he will. GGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRR!! i just got back from shopping around with my dad and my older sister. i hate her so much. the only time she's nice to me is when she wants to use me to get her out of trouble. and she's so fucking boppy! i emphasize the word boppy! she's a fucking bop! she always gets what she wants and she takes all my parents money that they don't have to spend on stupid clothes and 10 fucking pairs of fucking shoes. she needs at least 2 new outfits each week like she's in the fucking fashion club or something. and then after she's done spending, theres no money left, as if there ever was! WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCKING KILL ME AND SELL MY THINGS SO YOU CAN BUY MORE SLUTTY-WHORE-TIGHT-ASS-BELL-BOTTOMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCKING SELL ME TO SOME FUCKING FREAK CIRCUS!!!!!! GO ONE! TAKE EVERYTHING! TAKE EVERYTHING! I WANT YOU TO! GOD!!!!!! ITS LIKE SHE HAS TO BE MISS WORLD! SOMEBODY KILL HER! poor hanson, he'll never be cool. but its ok, cause hes a loser anyway. he'll never be popular. he's just soooo not cool. and hes sooo out of fashion. wow quinn, i can't believe he's your cousin.

-----3/26

today was a normal day. nothing happened in the morning. at swimming, i talked to valerie. she really wanted to dunk me in the water, but i kept telling her no. she kept bugging me so i dunked her into the water. then she did the same to me. BUT!, she said that if she dunked me in the water then she would do anything i said, so i'm thinking of what i should make her say. valerie told me that bethany, angela, and a bunch of other people were going to take world history in summer school and i am too so hopefully we'll be in the same class. i'm going to a birthday party tomorrow. its a toga party, i don't really want to dress in a toga, even though she said we could wear our clothes underneath, but since its her birthday i guess i'll do it. we're gonna ride around in a limo and its gonna be a lot of fun. thats about all for today.

-----3/27

today was a fun day. i went out with my friends in the morning and we played basketball and then i went to lisa's party. it was so much fun. we rented a limo and we went to la jolla and the beach and we saw the seals and we partied and we stuck our heads through the sun roof and it was the best! and next tuesday i have to get whats called a "biopsy" on one of my teeth. the dentists have to cut open my gums and fish for a tooth thats not surfacing and pull it up to where its supposed to be.

-----3/30

today was an ok day. a band called simon says came to our school. i thought they were just gonna be another stupid punk band but they werent, and they were pretty good. school is getting really boring without hazen. i got to go to my support group today and ditch geometry. today after school bethany was crying and that made me sad. my mom won't let me get a hamster, but i'm going to get one anyway.